with nothing more that some crappy baked mince pasta to digest, occupied with a sweet cup of earl grey tea I succumb once more to be in the presence of this soul sapping desktop computer to type away my congested feelings.. where has the day gone I mutter.. lost in a day of university.. conversations about life, history, modernity, self help, status, evolution and ideals of government and the list continues.. sometimes I wish I could bottle every idea frantically and keep it in my brain forever as I fear that I may loose the essence of my thoughts with the beginning of a new day.. do thoughts die? where do they go after they have been barrelling around the the millions of fibre optic connections in the matter that we conceive that is our brain.. where do all the thoughts go? sometimes I feel like they are being projected from our vibrating bodies of our very self and blasted into the universe at a speed faster than we can comprehend.. faster than the speed of light only to have instantaneously be slammed back into our very selves after fully circulating hundreds of times around the universe.. what are thoughts? how much energy does it take to build a thought and how much time does it take to destroy one? what is real? how do we define what real even is? how much of me is me and how much of it has been a creation of my own and a creation of the society i find myself involuntarily intrinsically connected with? i ponder these thing with some thought and rather an indifference due to fatigue..
my day on this planet however cannot be truly complete until i am left with some embarrassment of some kind. i will leave the details about this out but i feel already the pented up thoughts dispersing., i feel fatigue and lethargic I must pray for absolution... to a god who i know not exsists and allow myslef to breathe unhibitated now and for every second of my life..
trust in yourself in your love and perfection in all things that are real and others which are not... and let in bring you peace and love
good days my friends
stevo
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