tiring days

It has been a tiring day peoples. Relationships once smooth seem like choppy torments. Women who were keen... quite simply seem less keen. The day has been consumed with got to do's instead of 'would like to do's' ah life is in the making now and forever! it amuses me greatly that the expenditure of energy is constantly in deficit for me, always getting pulled to something that I don't want to do. Jesus! Furthermore what sucks the most is that this is meant to be the uni holidays and i find myself becoming undulating in the never ending cycle of bullshit work! WTF is the go with that! I guess if i dint find this job so poisonousness i wouldn't be concerned but unfortunately the conditioning has been skewered to a place of disharmony and disconnectedness!! for once in my miserable little life can i actually work and get ahead? for once can i get some enjoyment out of this pathetic existence that we would call life and harmony working within the bullshit constrains of so called society. what the fuck is the point to it all! society is an artificial construction although meant to provide us with a platform to become more, provide opportunities and liberites is more geared to controlling the people and making us strive for something better and not even for us but for our children. i say fuck society and all that is stands for as it to me stands for fucking nothing. it stands for a bunch of people that are the minority to have 95 percent of all the wealth be internally corrupted and allow the  majority of our population to remain where it is. fucking nowhere.. and fooled to think that we can become so much more that what we are although left my friends with our dicks in our hands because at the end of the day we have nothing and furthermore again we are striving for something that isnt even real. tangible yes. cars money and the pleasures that come with it however we are working and functioning in a big playground where the purpose of life is so much more than that but we are all decived by the bright lights we remain ignorant placid and get distracted to what matters and we are not taught how to ahive it. we are onlty taught to participate, contriubute become a wheel in a machine and then when you have paid all your taxes and are on your deathbed the government say sweet deal another good citizen of australia.

my arguement is this. do not be fooled by the bright lights of society. there are many things to be distracted by and if so great but be aware what really matters is something to strive and fight for because belive me it wont fall in your lap. dont be left like the majority of us are left gaping with our dicks in our hands wondering what the fuck is it all for and if nothing really matters..

go home

steve

harrys blog

lol i wrote on some dudes blog from triple j :-)

This is so true Harry and I totally agree however I think there is so much more than this. The essence of you you are, you reality, individual beliefs I believe is one layer. How much of the things that you believe are really the things that you have consciously chose to adopt and how many have been imprinted on your complacent mind? Looking at the self, at individual truth comprises of only one layer of reality within the complexity of the human mind. Society in my humble opinion has for far to long has controlled and suppressed the way we think. We have become too dependant on reactive thought instead of realising we are beautiful creative beings that have the ability to focus our energy on something real, positive and make change in this eternal moment. This may seem impotent in the face of disaster however I would argue that taking control of your thoughts and feelings in the moment of negativity is even more important. I don't believe in suppressing emotions that are harmful, I believe in moving through them using the creative flow.

My only point is this and hopefully it is an extension to Harry's thoughts not only do we have choices on how we perceive things, I believe we can create our reality with the tools given to us from whatever you want to call it, evolution or spiritual awaking to forge a life of love and freedom now and forever. We just first realise that not only are we awake but inspire to take control and be free.

what is love?

When you are a child you are innocent. No one tells you how to love, how much you should love or who to give your love to. I remember being young and innocent. Only vaguely though as if trying to look back into this time was peering into an alternate reality where the governing laws of who I was were so uncannily different it feels like entering that reality requires crossing to the dream state and you almost have to induce a chemical to be able to relive that again. During this time the heart is pure and wants to give. Now my mind is clouded with uncertainty, artificial social constructions, riddled with doubts and fears. How deep do I have to look within myself to recapture the essence, the purity of what I once was. I believe that love is still alive in all of us. I think that all we every really want is to be truly loved. We want someone to look into the deepest part of our eyes, to the depths of our very soul and feel the embrace of total surrender and a union of human spirit. This is a beautiful thing. I can only image our untapped capabilities as humans to love unhindered, fully, passionately, freely, forcefully, fiercely, passionately and unashamedly. Again I must say again this is so beautiful. It feels that in today's reality one must jump through numerous social constructions to emotionally connect with people on a level that isn't really real. Not unlike giving yourself over through a pane of glass, not knowing how to give your gift, freely, without fear and with love. Your emotions are not received clearly as they are forced to penetrate the glass pane, become distorted and lose their purity and strength and are accepted as only a fractional shadow of the beacon of love they really are. There are two issues here that concern me. This is the first loving wholly without fear and communicating love without the pane of glass and the second is somewhat more depressing. Personally in this moment I am feeling this so I choose to move through this emotion by embracing it and venting it here on this blog. The second part of love that plagues me is this. If you know how to truly love and the barrier of glass has been removed how do you find someone to accept this gift fully whilst not being afraid and by not abusing this trust and love? To resign to oneself is to live partially stammering with fear and uncertainty. I feel in this moment I have had a taste of the beauty of love and again although again it has been ripped away from my me in a whisper in the wind. Although the woman who has reminded me of all the beautiful things that I am missing may not indeed be a life partner and only a friend of a short time i am still left with a fleeting sense of hopelessness, sadness and despair as although I would like to share my gift with a full heart and open mind I cannot again and I remain where I always have been alone and left in the dark..